Its cold and rainy and I love it. Work has been good, I roll with things now.
I don't know where I'm going still, but things seem a little clearer. It looks like I'm going to start film school in March. It looks like I may be not working at all through the course of that. That's a really frightening thought to me. I've worked since I was 16. I don't want to say it gives me a sense of self-worth, but I do love what I do, and I'm happy when I'm busy. Passions will shift, like all else in time. I'm secure feeling about it, but that doesn't stop me from feeling sickeningly nervous.
Yesterday was great. After taking my little girl to the vet, I went to one of my co-worker's plays at Pace University. They did Urinetown, which was a really silly, fun musical. I hadn't seen a play in a while, and I don't know that I've ever seen a college performance. It was great, though, I needed it. Also, I barely know her, as I just hired her recently, but she has such an amazing talent, its unbearable. It was also the first time I went out with a friend I've made in New York, my Assistant, Eric.
I came back to Brooklyn after that and rested before I went back into the city to catch Jay Brannan play in the city. Jay was in the film Shortbus and he did a song that I fell in love with called "Soda Shop". Anyway, I found as I was getting directions that he was playing a small gay lounge in Chelsea called Barracuda. I brought Kaitlin with me and as we got there, we went and noticed the person on the stage wasn't him, so we turned back out to get drinks and I slam my face into this guy's shoulder but kept moving because it was crowded and I turned to see if Kaitlin was behind me and I realized the guy I slammed into was actually Jay, as he was turned back now staring at me.
We went and got some cocktails and I was kind of embarassed, but then when I went to check the stage again, he had come over to Kaitlin to talk to her and then he introduced himself to me. We chatted a bit but these gay guys all kept coming up to him and he came over and kept telling us thanks for coming and that he was sorry he kept getting interrupted when he talked to us. Had more drinks and realized he was finally playing and he was so so good and so funny. Really, he's on MySpace, everyone should check him out, he's so good, his lyrics are great and I love his voice.
Afterward, I was waiting for Kaitlin to go to the bathroom and he came up to me again, but people kept bugging him, so we went and got food since Kait was starving and came back for more drinks after. Bumped into him again, and before the show, I asked him if he was nervous and he said "of course" and when I bumped into him again, I told him that he clearly had nothing to be nervous about and he grabbed me by the side of my stomach and told me I was cute. Hah. We chatted for a bit longer than he left. He told me I needed to come to see him next month, though. I definitely will, he's really, really wonderful.
Got home and got a message from Liam, I am definitely guest-listed for the Stills shows coming up, I'm really excited.
I'm spending tonight in. I'm so wiped out from no sleep and vodka tonics. Tonight will be TV and chocolate Bobka that Kaitlin picked up for me today with my cute little dog who won't stop kissing me. Things are good, which is nice, because Brooklyn, I feel, has been testing me with hard days since the week I got here.